Last night my sleep was restless and dream filled. In one there were shadows and people I didn’t know, lurking, watching. I was helping a few people clean up a restaurant maybe. I put my purse over the back of a chair while I worked. When I do this I think ‘don’t forget it.’ It was a nice time even with the shadows. In another there was a ride in a car. I was in the back with someone and a women, I don’t think I know, is driving. I know the others in the car. They are all women. The driver who has thick curly hair is laughing and enjoying herself, but driving too fast. Then the road is covered in snow and I become frightened. We are flagged to slow down. The person, a woman, flagging us yells there is ice under the snow and we come to a full, adrupt stop. Everyone gets out of the car except me. I don’t have my shoes on. I can’t find my purse. I left it in the restaurant of the first dream. I am sure I did and am embarrassed to tell everyone that we must go back.
These two dreams are at least three hours apart. They can’t be the same dream. If they aren’t the same dream what is the connection that my purse is in both dreams? I have always understood that your dreams are about sorting through things that happen; impressions that you have had during the period of time since the last dream. That the underlying feelings you have in the dream are an emotional gauge; how you are feeling at the time. Your mind weaves the impressions together with the feelings and you have a seeming cohesive dream.
Eating in restaurants, having many strangers around me, fear of forgetting my purse and having almost daily close calls while driving are common themes for my days here. So for them to be a part of my dream I can readily understand. To look to all the feelings, for me, is the interesting part of this dream. While in the restaurant helping I felt hungry and happy. Hungry because I am trying to loose another kilo (2.2 pounds) and am always hungry, probably while sleeping also. Happy, I was helping someone and it felt satisfying to be useful. I am on my way to Patty’s this next week and I love being useful to her while there. The anxiety in the car is the same anxiety that follows me around the week before I travel. Every time.
You all know I travel a lot. I fly most trips. JarieLyn asked me today if I fear flying. I don’t think that is it as I have the same anxiety when we go by train. I fear being late to the airport. I fear forgetting something I need. I fear not being able to find space in the overhead bins. I fear my bags won’t arrive. I am just anxious. Then the moment I am walking onto the plane it is gone. Where does it come from, where does it go. Every time.